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Namaste


This word of namaste has been so familiar among colleagues in my office. It has been frequently used. Everytime I tell them of taking leaves, especially for a vacation, they will quickly say that I am going for a namaste. For them namaste is to meditate in a quiet place or in nature. It is so funny.

Namaste is used to show a respect

They also have been using this word to remind anyone of us who starts  losing control our emotion during working hours. If anyone in the room starts speaking on the phone in an angry tone, usually speaking to another colleague from different division, she might be speaking loudly or even shouting, then another colleague in the room will remind her saying ‘namaste’. Namaste here means ‘be peaceful’.

Of course they do not know the exact meaning of namaste. They only relate this word of namaste to the practice of meditation or yoga. They can relate a meditation is a practice to become peaceful. This is what they understand. I am not really sure what is in their mind or what they imagine when someone is doing namaste. I remember when I joined a yoga class in a fitness center long time ago, the yoga instructor also ended the yoga session with cooling down through being mindful of our breath with a little bit of reflection. And at the very end of this session she would say namaste.

I also knew namaste from my meditation class. It is the word used by God to show His respect to us. God is so humble that He puts us higher than Himself. He has the greatest personality of all. It is also the way He shows His love to us.

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My squishy

What do you do when you have to wait? Nobody likes waiting. But when you are on an air trip, you will have to go in a queu after a queu. And it means you have to wait a lot. You probably have to queu to scan your barcode to enter the airport building, the you have to queu to check your luggage, then you have to queu at the check-in counter, you have to queu to go inside after passing the check-in counter, plus you have to queu to declare your electronic health application, then you have to queu to board on the plane. Queu after queu after queu….

If you have have to transit at the airport before continuing your next flight or probably your flight get delayed, and you have to wait for quite a while what do you usually do while waiting? Long before covid when I was in a transit at an airport for several hours I was sitting in a lounge, a very nice lounge. It was an international airport. Very busy airport. Many flights from different continents transited there. I saw a young woman carrying a yoga mat in the lounge. She was practising a little bit of yoga exercise in the lounge. The lounge was quite big and cozy and not crowded. I thought it was a brilliant idea to have yoga exercise during transit. It is especially very good if you are on a long flight. The body need some exercice.

I never do that actually, but I remember I always carried with me a squeshy. I had a strawberry-shaped one. Not quite big but it suited to my palm. I noticed by squeezing that squishy could give me some comfortable feelings. it brought calmness in me. I could play with it during my transit or waiting period. I didn’t need a big space to play with it. It is also a bit of exercise for me. I remember when we were traveling in a big group and I played the squishy with a friend while waiting our boarding time. It was always fun! She said that her daughter loves squishy too. The squishy has broken long time ago and I got a new one but it was not as good as the first one. It was smaller than the first one. I wish I can get a new one.

It gives you a calm feeling!.

Modern airports usually provide cozy lounges or interesting spots. I found this interesting mural painting at the airport in Jakarta very recently.

Stop and have some fun here
another fun spot at airport

Look at this. It was painted on the wall along the corridor on the way to the baggage claim area. It looks fun, doesn’t it? Looking at the mural, I said to my friend to stop and I asked her to take these pictures for me. I always said to my self ‘You are free to do anything that makes yourself happy.’ It is including taking a picture with the mural painting. After taking some pictures I asked my friend to do the same. I could take some pictures for her. But she refused to do it. I jokingly said ‘By taking the picture with the mural painting, you won’t get older quite soon’. It may give a lot of fun to her too. Hearing this she just laughed at me. And I said ‘probably you won’t get older quite soon, but you will get crazy quite soon.’ I think she agreed with the humor and we laughed together.

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Not a crazy rich

My short vacation a few weeks ago was just too nice to remember. It was so memorable. Probably because I made it unhurried one. I didn’t focus on the destination (the place we were going to visit), but I enjoyed the journey (the process) to that place. It is always the journey that takes longer time and energy. So better do not miss it.

I remember I told this to my friend ‘You are too focused on the destination. Enjoy the journey.’ She is a task-oriented person. She likes planning, which is also good. She was the one who kept reminding me to take Covid-19 test the day before our flight back. Not only reminding, but also searching for the clinic and arranging it.

I also remember, a colleague texted me one morning, very early morning ‘How is Ubud?’

Me : ‘Great!’
Then I sent him the picture below and ask him: ‘Does it look like a vacation of a crazy rich?’

He: ‘No!!!’
Me : ‘Why?’
He : ‘A crazy rich will wear a bikini.’

Does it look like a crazy rich’s?

Probably a crazy rich won’t go to a forest or village like me, they will go to an island and stay in a luxurious resort with private beach and yes, wear bikinis. 😊

In term of the feeling of happiness, is it same happiness of a crazy rich and non-crazy rich same? Is its degree same or not?

Happiness has to do with the state of mind (probably also the sate of heart), it has nothing to do with physical wealth. Mind and heart are in soul. They are non-physical.

I said in my heart ‘I am not a crazy rich but spiritually rich.’

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My unhurried trip


Have you had any vacation during this pandemic? If you had one, how was your vacation? Did you take an air trip? Is there any difference?

I was having my vacation last week, during the weekend. It was more like a short break for me. It was my first vacation for the last two years. I experienced myself to be in a ‘physical lockdown’ due to the pandemic. No trip at all. So I was very excited.

I was in this trip with a friend. The beauty of having a travel buddy is that we can share. My friend did the flight booking and I did the hotel booking and car rental. We shared a room. We shared itinerary. We decided where to go together, but I let her make the detail itinerary. Luckily both of us are quite flexible people. I think we have become a nice travel buddy to each other.

An unhurried trip

I called it an unhurried trip. Although it was just a very short, but I wanted to experience it as a relaxing vacation. I expected a lot from this. I told my friend things I wanted to do and enjoy during our vacation. Just to make her understand her travel buddy. I tried to be open about everthing to her as much as possible. I told her that I would do my morning meditation, journaling and yoga exercise. So I brought a yoga mat with me. We are flexible people. We didn’t have to attach to each other all the time. One morning I went to a meditation class and she went to a new coffee shop that she was really curious about. She enjoyed her breakfast there. The day before we went to that coffee shop but it was fully booked. It looked very nice, in the middle of the forest in Ubud.

My morning tracking
Nature never fails to make you refreshed.

This is a break for the soul, so refreshing. We enjoyed the nature so much. I enjoyed the morning tracking. I really loved it.  We enjoyed mountain, lake, forest and also paddy field. I kept reminding myself that it was the journey for the soul, not just a physical journey. It is the soul that creates the experience. It is the soul that is filled with nice feelings – relaxed, unhurried, unoccupied. It is a real break when the mind stop rushing.

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Exploring the self


I think it is a never ending process. Probably a life long journey for many of us. But let me tell you, it is a worthed journey to take. A very rewarding journey. It takes so much of your patience and your persistence to keep going. Don’t stop till you get what you search for.

I realize the need to explore the spirit within when I was in my early twenties. At that time I didn’t have any ide of being a spirit at all. What I knew was that I was yearning something but I couldn’t define what it was. I was introduced to meditation. I would have to say that meditation is probably the only way that helped me to find what I had been yearning. But it never happens over night. It took so much effort. I have been practicing meditation for a long long time, but to be frank with you I only made an intense effort for the last seven years.  When I consciously put all my effort on this journey and enjoyed it, I could finally say that I have attained what I had been yearning. what have I attained through meditation and through my constant effort? the answer is my self-respect. Yes, I have got my self respect back. There is so much contentment inside. When there is contentment, the spirit is experiencing the fullness. Only when you are content inside or completely full inside, you will remain stable and nothing or none can shake you inside. No matter how chaotic the situation around you or in the world, if you keep the oasis of peace within you, you will remain uninfluenced. You will become the oasis for people around you to seek peace. You will move with so much courage and hope to those who are helpless. The world will need this more and more.

If you are in a journey of exploring yourself, keep doing it and never stop.

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Forget the numbers

When I got covid-19 and just got tested, it said that my CT level was only 14. It was very low. The lowest among anyone I knew who got covid-19. I was introduced to start knowing some numbers. The body temperature, the pulse rate and also the oxygen saturation. All is indicated in numbers. I had an oxymeter to check the oxygen saturation and pulse with me. I heard from people the oxygen saturation tends to drop in covid patients. and when it drops to 90 or 85, one needs oxygen. The virus infects the lungs and quickly affect the respiratory system. Most of the covid patients experience shortness of breath, including me.

Bye oxymeter!

It should be checked regularly to know whether the patient need oxygen or not. Every time I checked my oxygen saturation that little monitor showed numbers, it kept changing from 99, 98, 97, 97,95, then 94. It takes a little bit of time to finally stop and show a number of oxygen saturation level. If you are the patient, that few seconds can make so panicked and restless. It was said that you need to be cautious if it goes down below 95. In such a situation, I decided not to check it again. I just didn’t want to know it anymore. Much later a friend who shared her story to me, taking care of four people in her family who got covid at the same time said that she became very stressful hearing the word oxygen saturation. The four people had to be hospitalized and all needed oxygen. The sad story was that one of them died, her brother in law.

The only thing that I kept with me is a thermometer. It was to check my body temperature. I needed to know if I still needed to take paracetamol or not. Covid-19 might not a simple disease. But I didn’t want to get myself complicated with those numbers and get stressed and worried. Worries would never help me. So I chose not to be worried.

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30 Minutes Celebration, Free from Covid-19


I remember I had a thought of having a celebration when I got recovered. I call it ‘30 Minutes Celebration, free from Covid-19’. I shared this idea to a friend. In fact my body was so weak at that time. My friend might think that I had been feeling better. He said ‘It is a great idea. When you keep light and positive about it, it will inspire people.’ Actually I was not even going through my lowest point, my body was too weak and I still got high fever. Yet my mind was busy thinking and planning on the idea – the format of the celebration, what I wanted to share or say, who would be invited etc. Thinking of the celebration is having a positive thought. A positive thought gives power to the soul. This thought has made me focus on the recovery and not on the sickness. It must have contributed to my speedy recovery.

My virtual celebration

Since then I have a mission to encourage people to stay calm and stay courageous in dealing covid-19. Last Sunday I had my celebration on ZOOM. I invited my bosses, colleagues and friends for this. I was very happy that they could make it. I shared my experience in dealing with Covid-19 fearlessly, how I stayed happy and courageous. To my bosses, colleagues and friends, thank you for making time to join my celebration. You have supported me through your good wishes. I am so grateful to have you all.

My mission is to inspire people to be fearless.

One mission is accomplished.

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How I stayed grateful while having Covid-19


When a colleague was being hospitalized due to Covid-19 in December last year, he told me that he didn’t like the meals provided by the hospital. I posted his story on A Solo Battle. So he decided to get his meals from outside through online order.

When I was in my self-quarantine at home, I didn’t have choices what to have for my meals. I only had in my stock one big package of oats, a box of raisin and a box of milk. I was not favourite for having breakfast with oats and raisin actually. But that was the only menu that I could have for breakfast. It is very easy and very quick to prapare. Only 3 minutes! My body was too weak to prepare my own meal longer than 3 minutes. So I had oats and raisin for my breakfast every single day. Since then I love this breakfast.

The 3 colours vegie soup for lunch

I had vegie soup for my lunch. I call it three-colors soup. Sweet corn, spinach and carrot. It looks fresh and super nice. I also had this menu every sibgle day. When I shared my soup photo to my colleague (I mention above) with a caption ‘I am very grateful with this soup’. He quickly responded ‘It must taste so good’. In fact I only put salt and pepper in it.  It is just similar with hospital’s meal. It’s quite plain, not spicy at all.

The covid patients are always adviced to have sun rays, so I also did it. I sat just right in front of my front door to get the morning rays from the sun. It was really cool having my favourite drink, honey lemon tea. It is the hot one. It was just my mood booster.

I was really grateful with my simple meals during my self-quarantine.

When you are grateful, your heart is happy because you love what you have and you are not craving for something you don’t have.

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How I dealt with Covid-19

It has always been very CLEAR with me that this virus only infects the body, not the soul. The soul remains safe and courageous. I kept telling myself and everyone ‘I know this soul is very strong.’

I think this thought helped me a lot in dealing with the virus. My friend said that this is the power of thought.

I took the medicine and vitamins that prescribed by a doctor. I had my covid vaccine. I heard from many people that after having vaccinated someone may still get infected but with mild symptoms, like me. This also helped me in my recovery.

I could maintain a state of having no complaint, about my situation nor the virus. I always communicated to the virus with love ‘Virus, you may stay here but I need to make this body strong. You will be more comfortable when this body is strong.’ In this way,  I only allowed love fill my heart, including love for the virus. When there is love, there is no fear. In this way I remained fearless.

Actually people are not afraid of covid-19 but death. Because rarely people have prepared for their death.

We are afraid of death, not Covid-19.

I have one mission now, to inspire as many people as possible not to be afraid of covid-19 and stay courageous.

Would you join me?

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I am back!!!!

Positive Covid-19 with CT 14

I didn’t post anything in this blog in the last two weekends.

Yes, I was positive covid. I have been in a self-quarantine for the last two weeks. It was a wonderful time during the two weeks.

I had my first jab of covid vaccine on June 17th 2021. I got fever, sore throat and cough.

I will share how I dealt with this virus fearlessly in my coming posts.