Reading my previous post on ’21 day abundance’ someone expressed to me her interest in experimenting it with herself. She was inspired. I called it a project and she called it an experiment. 😊
To give her a more clear picture, I shared to her a list of my daily reflection and also some reflection journals I wrote. This was how I broke down one idea into 100 smaller ideas and how I went deeply into it – my understanding, my experience and also my feeling.
She asked me if I failed along the way, while doing the project, what did I do then? What would be my approach? Did I start from the beginning or did I just continue it?
Actually I always have in my mind that to change a mindset is never an overnight project. It means it is not easy. It also means we may fail. We may do it imperfectly. This is why I made it into 100 days. Enough space for practice. Hopefully the whole belief system inside will get used to it. It is like installing a ‘new program’, the old belief system will react. We need to be ready for an anticipation.
So I don’t consider it as a failure, but much more as a practice. If I consider it as a failure, it would give me a heavy feeling, a pressure. I would easily feel bad about myself. I don’t like this feeling. It doesn’t do any good for my self progress. I am very much aware of this.
I learned how to be consistent and committed to what I wanted to do. I learn how to reflect honestly, how to accept myself, how encourage myself and uplift myself. This is a solo project.
Even after the project was completed, It didn’t make me perfect and that’s fine. I re-run it. I started from tye beginning. I reflected the same points, I wrote it again. I feel the understanding becomes deeper, the feeling becomes stronger. My perspective slowly changed. This made me realize how much patience I should have for myself, for my self change. A change doesn’t happen instantly, it takes time…..hopefuly permanently.